Today is a semi-sunny Saturday here in Dublin. Today I am heading into work in the afternoon. So am going to try fit in some study now before I have to go.
After my entry last night, I have to be honest, I felt very depressed and discouraged about my being able to do graduate medicine.
It seems like I have not nearly enough time and I began to sincerely doubt my capability to actually pass the test and go on to med school.
I guess the fact that I have no real experience at studying chemistry and none at physics is what's getting me down. I am taking on two very challenging subjects from scratch this summer, while working full time and not only learning to drive but also getting fit and healthy both physically and mentally.
So I went to bed last night feeling really down. I wanted to talk to someone about what I'm going through but really nobody gets it. They don't get the passion and the willingness to work my butt off to do this. They think I'm just a hopeless dreamer....
What was I talking about...?
Ha no really it is frustrating facing something so terrifying alone.
I don't know if anybody reading this is spiritual or religious but I do believe in God. I don't know quite what I believe about God but I prayed last night and read the Bible (I don't consider myself a Christian I just like reading it, lots of reassurance and wisdom in it! ), and I just felt like this feeling of renewed determination came over me.
It may be difficult, it seemed to say, but if you want it you can do it. It will require a lot of changes on your part, but you can do it!
So I'm trying to focus on that positive feeling, and not on any self-doubt.
Well enough talking time to take action and go study for my exams!
Have a great day! :)
Ps. This is a quote from the Bible but you don't have to believe in God to apply it to your life. It's just about being positive and taking action. :)
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