Emotional Stress Day Monday!

Afternoon!

I started off my day with romantic stress. A sort of break up if you will and I lost someone whom I care about a great deal. Definately not a good way to start the day.

I felt that I needed to limit the amount to influence from my private life on my career goals. In other words I needed to prioritise. I'm sure I come across to others as cold hearted at times, but I must keep my focus in tact.

It got me thinking though...I'm still quite upset and it's distracting me from study for my exams. Imagine what it will be like in med school! You can't pause for a minute to cry or sigh over anything. You have to push and get through it. Push it away and get practical, which is what I'm trying to do.

I think I have let my emotional life get in the way of my studies a great deal in the past, and I just can't let myself do that any more. I don't have the time to be depressed or sad!

Happy I can do though! :)

I'm trying to catch myself when I say or do something negative. Ha I never realised how much of a moan I am!

This change could take a while!

:)

Down and up again!

Good morning (for another 15 mins or so)!

Today is a semi-sunny Saturday here in Dublin. Today I am heading into work in the afternoon. So am going to try fit in some study now before I have to go.

After my entry last night, I have to be honest, I felt very depressed and discouraged about my being able to do graduate medicine.

It seems like I have not nearly enough time and I began to sincerely doubt my capability to actually pass the test and go on to med school.

I guess the fact that I have no real experience at studying chemistry and none at physics is what's getting me down. I am taking on two very challenging subjects from scratch this summer, while working full time and not only learning to drive but also getting fit and healthy both physically and mentally.

So I went to bed last night feeling really down. I wanted to talk to someone about what I'm going through but really nobody gets it. They don't get the passion and the willingness to work my butt off to do this. They think I'm just a hopeless dreamer....

What was I talking about...?

Ha no really it is frustrating facing something so terrifying alone.

I don't know if anybody reading this is spiritual or religious but I do believe in God. I don't know quite what I believe about God but I prayed last night and read the Bible (I don't consider myself a Christian I just like reading it, lots of reassurance and wisdom in it! ), and I just felt like this feeling of renewed determination came over me.

It may be difficult, it seemed to say, but if you want it you can do it. It will require a lot of changes on your part, but you can do it!

So I'm trying to focus on that positive feeling, and not on any self-doubt.

Well enough talking time to take action and go study for my exams!

Have a great day! :)

Ps. This is a quote from the Bible but you don't have to believe in God to apply it to your life. It's just about being positive and taking action. :)